I have come across many people who say that they are not as good looking as others. They get nervous in public when they are asked to give their views. They aren't able to perform as well as others though their knowledge is at a higher level.
I had all these symptoms a time ago. I hated myself because i wasn't beautiful and i couldn't speak as good an English. One day in school, there were auditions for singing and modelling competition.I was taking part in the singing competition. I reached the venue right on time. I heard a voice shouting behind pointing out to me and saying,"Who has put this ugly girl for modelling?" I ran out from the auditorium, crying.Tears continued to roll down my eyes.I wanted answers to my some question, questions which only God could answer.In the evening I went to the gurudwaara sahib, I closed my eyes and said to God-" You have given me everything till date. Please make me beautiful also. I want to look pretty". A voice replied,"Its the inner beauty which matters more."
"I know that God but still the world measures the face value more. Please make me beautiful"
"I will make you beautiful but first of all you have to fall in love with yourself. You are a very beautiful being but start to love yourself. Time will change for you."
I opened my eyes and I knew the answer I had been searching. Every night before going off to sleep, I would repeat the words-'I love myself' about 10 times. I did this for a month. I didn't become beautiful but there was something different. I actually started to love myself. Not that I thought, I was better than the rest but I wasn't less either. I started to open my hair more often. My dresses changed from manly to an elegant wear. My mother observed a change in me.She told me I had started to look girlish. I started to love life. My mother would always say that you can't fall in love with anyone or anything until you are in love with yourself.
I had horrible stage fear but still I went up on the stage for debate. I came last but still I went again. One of the teachers recommended my name for a state level debate competition. That way I got rid of my confidence problem. Even when I was scared i didn't show it up. I pretended to be the boldest. That pretense gave me strength.
When I reached college, some boys came to rag me. I was very scared but all I did was, pretend!! I ragged the boys instead and came to be really known. so, this is all I have learnt. Today I speak better English than the rest. I can stand and fight for myself. I can't hear anything against myself because I love myself. Its like when you hear somebody speaking bad about your dear ones. You feel like teaching them a lesson. Thats exactly what i do. Learn to accept yourself the way you are because when you are the way you actually are, you are the best. Don't be fake. Just be yourself. you will get courage automatically and things will change. i saw the change. if I could do it, then anybody can!!...Keep smiling :)
